#52: Surrender

I've been wanting to write this song for a while. I'm rushing; normally I would spend a bit more time mixing the song but I'm going to New Zealand tomorrow at 4pm and I need to start planning for that trip. In New Zealand I'm going to be collaborating with Jon Dhama on some songs.  I'll post some songs while I'm over there. Back at the end of November. (My first song on this subject is #30 'the River')

I thought I knew the word surrender and what it meant, I thought it meant I would defend her when soldiers were sent to my home to rape and plunder and steal my wife. I'd fight till the teeth were kicked from head; I'd fight with my life. I see her jacket on every corner, I see her hair from afar, I see her shoes on every subway, her face in every car. I've seen her face in bed beside me when she's really not there, but superimposed upon another blank face I met somewhere. I'm so sorry, please listen to me. I'm full of regret, no I'm not done yet. It's time for me to let go, it's time for me to let go. I thought I knew the word surrender but the meaning didn't last, I thought my hands were in the air but I was riding on the past. And now I've broken that bone I thought was my neck, but was really just a bundle of veins hardened with regret. I'm so sorry, please listen to me. I'm full of regret, no I'm not done yet. It's time for me to let go, but I want you to know, I really love you.